Drops of Jupiter by Tanya Chua (Rock Version by Train)

Shiroi Kaze is feeling

*burp* mwehehhe.. i'm ALONE!~ in my dept~~ spent the whole morning doing some crap things.. instructions for the scanner in front.. trying to connect a zip drive to my pc (but its still lying in a mess beside my monitor..) sent the mth end qty tally thing out.. attended a meeting.. editing the html for tis new blog~~ basically.. din start on anything major & work related.. SOX audit tmr.. no chance to start filing nor clearing away some messy old stuff again i guess.. yayy! jus checked nba.com.. detroits 3-1!! malone n payton r one defeat away from despair..


was totally freaked out by the overloaded server of Diaryland.. wanted to post on sat nite but i keep getting the server over limit msg.. tis is gonna be one long blog man.. had enuff of the overloaded server.. jumped over to blogspot.. spent a bit of time looking at ppl's source code n kapok the html for clearing away the ad.. paiseh dt~ i KAPOK urs.. mwehehehehe.. tis thing really gotta trial n error.. kinda difficult for someone used to diaryland's straight n clear cut html.. spent abt an hr+ on testing..


hmm.. lets see.. sat.. woke up early n walked abt 600m to the JW market for a dim sum breakfast wit emily n bird.. food's not bad althou a bit ex (abt $7 per person) n full for breakfast (seems more like brunch.. was ard 1030.. waited half an hr for bird who was stuck in the toilet..) sun's scorching hot.. n i was perspiring like dunno wat, even thou i bathed b4 i went out, when i found emily and then we waited for bird.. then we ordered one table-full of dim sum.. [-_-||] tok n ate.. was super full when we're jus 3 quarters thru.. forced ourselves to finished them and i da bao the glutinous rice for my ah ma.. chit chat a bit after we finished n emily suddenly suggested going to sunset bay.. hmm.. i was agreeable to it since i dun have lessons.. bird was tempted to go but she already told her mum she's staying home to accompany her n she din wanna break her promise.. so we parted at there n i went home to pack my stuff.. little did i noe dat emily actually went to bird's house (they stay a few blks away) to wait for bird's mum to return n ask for her permission... hahhahha.. damn funny.. its not dat bird's mum dun allow her to go.. its jus dat bird feels guilty lah.. anyway i only noe abt it when i sms emily to ask her if there's anything i gotta bring.. then since she said she's still at bird's house.. i slacked a bit on the bed.. read comics b4 going for a shower..


we met up at JE interchange n took 97 to harbourfront trying to get to the bridge to walk over.. cldnt find the road.. so we wanted to take ferry.. who noes.. ferry service already taken off since july last yr.. ended up boarding the bus at the interchange there.. was abt 3+ when we reached the beach... sun's still sending arrows into our skins.. sand's scorching our soles.. we quickly found a shaded spot wit not much human traffic n threw our stuff there.. covered ourselves wit sunblock n INTO THE SEA WE GO!~ ahahha even thou the sea water's quite DIRTY (yucks) but... to escape the sun.. we dunch care~ the 2 of them were in white tanks while i'm in a black racer-back.. hahhaha.. but emily had her swimsuit underneath so still ok.. as for bird leh.. the blur queen as usual.. din think of changing into her swim top b4 jumping into the water.. n thus.. ahem.. *censored censored* but at least still jian de liao ren de lah.. anyway she got outta water n ran to get her swimtop n well... jumped back n CHANGED underwater.. power.. ahhahhah.. considered for a while to take off our tops then.. HECK CARE LAH.. jus took off.. had my white nikes underneath so i ended up wit a sports bra n a board berms (its not short..) n going to be one united nation??? mwehehhe.. still ok lah.. jian de liao ren.. got fren pei.. no prob man~~ kekkeke.. for the next 2 hrs like dat.. we're jus playing in the water.. coming up to be 3 hot dogs lying on the sand.. me n bird playing "dead ppl", "castaways" on the shoreline.. rolling here n there as the waves come in.. got our hair all sanded.. pockets filled wit sand.. went into the water to wash away.. only to come up n sand them again.. damn fun.. hahhahha.. the rest of the ppl on the beach mus be thinking we're 3 mad women man.. kekkekkeke.. duh.. who cares when u're doing it wit ur frens.. mwahhahhha...


qued for abt 1 hr for the toilet then me n emily proceeded to sakae for dinner.. was already 9 when we reach.. ate quite fast n then i sent emily home on cab as she wasnt feeling well.. accompanied her to her flat b4 walking the 600m home.. man its the 3rd time for the day.. as for wat happened, is a "secret" btwn us.. but she really freaked me out.. worried me so much dat i was waiting for her online and sms her when i din see her... keep nagging at her to go rest early.. n almost wanted to sms her to go to bed when i got offline at ard 1230.. she was doing her timetable then althou she's still not feeling comfortable.. a bit the insomnia from worrying althou was quite tired after the sunning.. (hey i din get tanned ok.. not a bit.. darn.. CONCLUSION: dun apply layers of sunblock if u're trying to tan urself... stupid me.. we dun wanna get the painful sunburnt n lobster experience so we put quite a bit of sunblock.. well.. din get the result we wanted..)


sunday.. emily smsed me at 11.30.. i was still zzz.. saw her msg 15 min later.. jio me out for lunch.. went online.. waited like 2 hrs for her to finish her chores n another half an hr for me to finish my nba.. so it was abt 3 b4 we ate our lunch.. i walked the 600m again on my already "soured" legs.. walked back home n spent most part of the evening reading comics on my bed..(finished 6 bks yest.. woah accomplishment.. mwehehhehe..) did my site revamp.. hmmm.. somehow doesnt look quite right.. might change a bit when i've time.. now.. i've one UNTOUCHED competition mini lion due on june 20th.. darn.. i'm jus super gd at procrastinating..

lastly, shall end off wit my views for tis quote quoted from DT's Blog

"I wanted only to try to live in accord with the prompting of which came from my true self. Why was that so very difficult?"
-- Hermann Hesse

I think the main reason for us not being able to live in accordance to wat we want is mostly due to external factors..


Influence is one thing.. if u're brought up in a very close-knitted village or in an isolated island, without communication to the outside world, u might not even noe how big earth is and that there's other ppl living elsewhere having totally different lifestyles from wat u're living now. Hence u will not have any urge to live some other life as u'll presume that everyone is the same as u do.. Take for eg North Korea (err.. i suppose lah.. i forgot north or south.. anyway its the communist controlled part of Korea) right now they've imposed a ban on handphones, which is already a necessity for us. The narrow thinking govt preceives handphones as an object that is changing the culture of N.Korea, bringing in foreign mindsets and influencing the minds of locals. Communists r very protective of their own culture n wld reject anything that'll change the mindset of ppl.. I suppose they might also ban the use of internets if they have not done so...


2ndly, its pressure from the external environment. r u able to achieve ur way of living in ur current environment? e.g. u're living in the city.. but u wanna lead a farmer's life, or a hermit.. seems hard unless u migrate to some other place.. then even if u migrate, r u able to accomodate? drastic change from a hectic city work life to a boring monotonous land ploughing lifestyle, or from a stable roof above ur head, to a moving caravan.. wats more, u wun be having the same income.. leading to loads of other issues.. There's also issues of thinking in other ppl's shoes, say u think ur fren's work is not up to standard, or u're abt to blow for some mistakes, or even suffering under ur boss's ridiculous requests, to maintain the frenship, u cant tell ur fren straight off.. gotta cool down n think of solutions, cant quarrel wit ur boss if u wanna keep ur job even thou u're already to the verge of explosion.. it all refrains u from wat ur true self wants to do...


then u gotta oso fit into wat ur family requires u to do.. if u wish to be a hermit, but ur parents or spouses object.. r u able to break off all relations to live the way u wanna live? seriously its hard when kin relationships r concerned.. u'll have less drive to accomplish the dream if u do not have the support u wanted..


blahh... i've crapped a lot for today.. cant think of any other views at the moment le..there's still a lot more.. another hr + to the end of another work day~ returns to email chatting wit grace n emily le..

Edited Jun 13 2005: All posts before this entry were transferred over from my old Diaryland blog.